Well today was another major hurdle for me, we had lisa ashes buried today at St Marys church Norton. It was a very small affair , close family and kids. Somewhere where i could show our 2 kids that this was mammys special place, a place where we could come and be close to lisa anytime we wanted to. But especially at mothers day, birthdays christmas etc. I think it has helped rebecca, jack is still too small. i told the kids that the box was full of love and kisses and some pictures for lisa that the kids made were inside. it is where we come to be close. I am still a broken man, i stay strong for the kids during the day, and break down at night when i am alone. i have never felt so lonely and empty in my life as i fell right now.